Because I cannot

Because I cannot cry while awake
     I weep for you in my dreams.
Because I cannot see you in the day
     I hold you in my thoughts at night.
Because I work to ignore my feelings
     My nightmares become my release.
Because I never saw a sign of the future written on your face
     I lie awake waiting to unravel.

After the Party

In our sleep,
our limbs curled
around each other,

begging that the other
not leave
but when morning came
with coffee and consequences,

we sat
in our separate chairs
and never mentioned
the tell tale marks
from the night before.